ken & dana designs reaching out to haiti

a lot of people are affected by the recent earth quake in haiti. i have friends who haven't been able to get in contact with their family members there, and while relief is being sent there, we can not send people peace of mind and reassurance.

now i can't think of a real solution to help but i saw this necklace by "ken & dana design". a purchase will insure a 30 dollar donation to the red cross.....just saying you may not want the necklace but haiti still needs the help. so please send help.

....to my wife!

***my honeybee!!!***

i'm blessed to be surrounded by great people, they make me who i am. we share joyful moments and tears, back stabbing, treachery,and all type of craziness. our lives are constantly intertwined but i can't lie, with the friends i have i don't mind that this is so. so without further ado, happy 21st birthday Melissa Renee Jones, my honeybee, we'll be dating one another until we find our mr. perfects...LOVE YOU MUCH LADY!!!

adventures with winnie the pooh and bearbrick

when i saw this i automatically started humming the theme to "the adventures of winnie the pooh"(one of my favorite cartoons when i was around 5 or 6 years old). Medicom, snapped with this one and i'm not big on figurines(i'm very lukewarm and it doesn't make much of a difference to me either way) , but for this set i wouldn't mind keeping them in their box in my living room.

streetlights

Aakash Nihalani’s On & Off (Often On)

studded collars take a turn...

when i think of studded collars i think about leather, spandex, and dark makeup. so seeing the colette and burberry collaboration, my jaw automatically dropped. i really love the cut of these coats, i need one of two in my closet for spring...seriously.

music monday 1.11.10

monday morning, i hop out bed and i'm feeling rather sexy and in love with myself(these are the days that can't be explained how wonderful they actually are). as i shuffled to the shower i turned on one of my favorite albums, Fly or Die by N.E.R.D., the random play order made,"the way she dance" come on. in the shower i danced to the tune, if you're a chick ever wanting to start off the day feeling good and slightly sexy play this song.

the things i don't do

***no shots are being fired here i just need to vent for a second. no mean to offend anyone, but this is my blog and i'll say whatever is on my chest.***

i must admit in my younger days i used to get caught in messy situations that could have been avoided by simply shutting my mouth and letting scenes play out minus my opinion. so as i have become a bit mature(not totally, but i am working on it everyday), i have decided to just shut my mouth and live life.

when i feel that i want a question answered i just ask the person one time and hope that they are honest in answering and just keep it moving. i'm not going to turn into a parrot asking the same thing, looking for different answers. there's no real time to be bothered with that process. webster says that insanity is doing the same act hoping that there will be a different result. there is nothing in life that i am willing to make me go crazy. i guess i trust alot and let go, so here are a couple of things you'll never catch me doing.....

1. honesty box - i'm not going to go anonymous and try and gather information. in my opinion i just don't have it in my to try and fool people. i give people answers they want/need in first person, so i trust they will do the same.
2. broken record- over and over with the same topic. i don't do it. i know of some people who ask the same questions hoping to find dirt, my granddad has taught me alot about life but one of his lessons that stand to me is "don't go digging in the mud, cause you will always find dirt"--t.o.sr. i figure this much, whatever is supposed to come into the light will, there's no point in forcing it to.
3. kung fu killer wolf bitch- i don't and won't fight, its much easier and less draining to just walk away
   
4. ms. with her nose in your biz!-i'm not about to search to know each and everything about you.
   

these are just things i don't do.

Bob Marley and Brian....

sometimes you just need to here some good reggae to make your day better. i was sitting my living room with my brother,when he started to sing this song. it was really a double treat, because my brother lives in another city and came home for the weekend, and the fact that he can sing. i wish i would have recorded him, but at the time i was too busy enjoying and not so much thinking.

i really enjoyed my night with my family, they are my back bone and support. no matter how much shit we talk, when its time to sit down and be family, it always happens.sitting here playing the wii, watching the mighty morphin power rangers, and eating combination low mein and garret's popcorn, i realize how much i love them...

** little us, in our grandmother's garden**

o.g. freak ass playa....mr. bootsy collins

as i ran around the city today i heard "i'd rather by with you" by bootsy collins. this has been one of my favorite old school songs ever, as i danced to the song i knew i had to post it. so i when i was searching for it on youtube, i found a live performance( umm can you say score!). its a practice, that i watch all videos before i putting them on the blog. of course it was a great, but as the song came to the ending, bootsy got real freaky(i won't give anyway the ending so watch it).

**here's to you mr. bootsy collins, you are the epitome of the o.g. freak ass playa**

my dream car....

when i was younger my father built hot rods.i remember sitting in the garage with him and my siblings, learning how to rotate tires and changing brake pads. some where in my childhood i fell in love with older model cars,particularly Ford, but especially Cadillac.

my dream car would have to be a 1959 Cadillac Deville,convertible of course, unlike in the picture it would be cherry red..i just think that's one car that is perfect for the summertime, top down, hair in the wind, ahhh the good life. hopefully one day i can make that dream a reality .

kenna - hell bent

told you i was a piece of work

how to win the argument everytime!

so i have had much experience in the arguing department as of late. coming from a family of strong willed(or stubborn) women, i learned some sure fire tips to help when it comes down to winning arguments.(even though i must admit, in the heat of battle, these rules sometimes are forgotten)....

• no matter how angry you get, never raise your voice. speaking in a calm tone throws people off guard. supposedly when people are angry they yell, but if you are speaking in a calm tone with a hint of nonchalance it puts the other person on the defense.

• no matter how jealous you may be, do not take what you may read to heart.overreacting over social networks blurbs will get you nowhere fast. the key to it all is in keeping the illusion of cool and nonchalance. if you're coming off as the crazy psycho stalker that checks their lovers twitter, facebook, bbm,im's, emails, etc. you're not coming off too nonchalant ...**the example below is what not to do**
  
  

• never fight over social networks with your significant other. and this is for many reasons, one it allows nosy people into your world, two no matter who's right or wrong you both look like idiots for airing your dirty laundry so publicly, three its just whack..you're not in seventh grade..stop acting like it!
  

• silence is the best weapon. when your lover is in the middle of a relationship rant, instead of cursing them out, hold your tongue. nothing pisses an angry argumentative person off more than someone who is not willing to argue back. letting them talk, holler, and shout until they realize, "hey, wait why am i fighting by my damn self?!?"

• no low blows!!!why?? because that's childish, hitting below the belt is basically a bitch move. even if the other person is shooting heavy fire your way, act as if everything is great..because after enough acting, you just might realize you are having a better time..and once again it pisses your partner off.

• if it ain't directly directed at me i don't respect it! no sneak dissing, either come out and say what you mean or just shut the hell up. bitches(that can be penis or vagina) do that mess, its not a good look, for anyone. subliminal messaging is cool for ads, not real life.
  

i swear these are the simplest rules to live by when in battle, they allow the upper hand in the situation and they give you a perfect view of...

• what you're fight about?

• what brought the fight on?

• if the fight is worth having?

YUP!

the weird shit i youtube

am i the only person that gets bored and starts to randomly look for things on youtube? well today i was sitting in the living room bored and started looking for things under the label of "snake vs....". so i started watching the video before reading the description and really thought that the snake had this fight sewed up...apparently prehistoric looking bugs aren't something one should really try and tangle with

love me sexy

...i'm talking rainforest sweaty....

in case you were wondering....

just a bit of what i'm listening to

... blog surfing earlier, i saw tiffany evans doing "i have nothing" by whitney houston. now no disrespect to her because she really did the song justice, i'm still riding with whit! so after watching tiffany i started looking for my mom's old cassettes tapes(yup that old) and turned off the tv and started singing out loud in whitney and my morning coffee. here are two of my all time favorites by ms houston...

" i have nothing "

"all the man i need"

Make My Burden Lighter

"Hot Dogs & Hamburgers(2008)"--Todd James

V MAG LOVES THEM SOME THICK CHICKS

all hail to the thick chick, the brickhouse. women come in all shapes and sizes, but i love me a thick chick. coming from a family full of curvy (full figured included), i, of course have real love for thick chicks.

"we like girls who ain't on tv cause they got more ass than the models"--kanye, the goodlife

Rumor Has It - Young Jeezy Featuring Pharrell

heard this in huntsville, i honestly forgot how dope it was

huntsville wrap up

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madonna featuring pharrell - give it to me

gap ad parody

me and my sister were sitting at the dining room table youtube surfing and came across this video...talk to the moose!!!

janelle does GAP

performing winter wonderland

one of the best shows ever

one day i was chilling with my homie and was rummaging thru the house's dvd collection and came across a show called "WEEDS". naturally my curiosity had me wondering what the show was about so after burrowing it, i realized i love this show. i even got my mom and sister watching the show. we all the finished the first season and now i'm up watching the second season. this show is on my must watch list with "sex and the city". if you've never seen it you should take some time out of your schedule and put netflix to use and catch up on the show. i'm not sure if the show is still airing but it comes on showtime...

thorns....

shoe sex : ulona

i haven't seen a pair of heels that made me blush and check my panties in a very long time and then i stumbled across the Christian Louboutin Ulona. all i can say is that these shoes have to be in my closet by july 17, 2010.

music monday....darling nikki

last night i was sitting at home eating blue bunny ice cream when purple rain came on. i live for prince, he is the sexiest little yellow man walking this earth. ooww, anyway my favorite scene of the movie is when he gets on stage and performs this song. one of the greatest possible foreplay songs ever.

kelis freak me slow

next year i'll take socks ...

yesterday was christmas(que applause). anyway every year my family gathers at my grandparents house to exchange gifts and have christmas dinner. over the years i have gotten some pretty ummm weird gifts from my family but i usually smile and say thank you and keep it moving.

my family is coming around to understanding that its just best to give the grandchildren gift cards, checks, or cash(even my grandparents gave me a gift card...big ups to the og's for that one), but my mom's youngest sister seems to have missed that memo. so when i was like ten, for some random reason i wanted a bed canopy. my parents told me no and i got over it and almost forgot about wanting one until yesterday. my aunt handed me my brightly wrapped gift and waited for me to rip through the paper. as i opened it, i'm sure i had a "what the hell" expression written all over my face....i got a bed canopy. i know its the thought that counts, but seriously this might get regifted and regifted soon. next year i'd much rather socks....

forever young - jay z feat mr hudson

Merry Christmas

from me to you...merry christmas. hopefully you've been good all year and santa won't pass your house. lol, but seriously i love christmas and its never really been about the gifts for me. i love waking up on christmas and cooking in the kitchen with my mom and sister. i probably should have asked santa for something this year but i pass on the opportunity...i just want a decent/good day at home with my lovies

music monday 12-21-09

so this morning i woke up in the need of r&g/hip hop. as i shuffled to the shower, my totally random playlist put some of my favorite songs...

"rell love"


"igotcha" perform downtown chicago


"my drive thru"


...danced the entire time in the shower. just some good morning music to start a weather vacation off right

Estelle - Pretty Please.

dear andy....

May 2010...

YES!!!!(in my best carrie bradshaw voice) i am a die hard SEX AND THE CITY fan. o my god i died when the first movie came to theaters. now the new movie is set to come to theaters May 2010. i am uber excited for this. i find myself being the black young carrie and she is the fiercest white girl to grace the screens! now all i have to do is find the perfect person to go see this with...cause i know u.c. isn't trying to have any part in this...lol that's fine cause he knows i'm not watching the finals with him!

Corduroy Skirts...the fashion fail and sin

this is what happens when people harass others for having alternative lifestyles. i have friends and family members who are in the LGBT community and they have told me horror stories about what it feels like to be harassed and made the butt of a social joke.

this picture got me thinking about something: most people that badger them are horrifically dressed, with ugly shoes, and bad hair. ugh these people need to go sit down and stop hating their lives and revamp their closets. i'm quiet sure that this woman really hated the fact that her mission to be a douche was throttled by a quick witted,stylish gay man...

N&*%A PLEASE(insert slap sound)

2:07pm name omitted
wad up, how u been
2:08pm rachel
i'm good
2:08pm name ommitted
what u been up 2
2:09pm rachel
school
2:09pm name ommitted
hows that goin
2:10pm rachel
fine
2:12pm name ommitted
u got skype?
2:13pm rachel
for what?(blank)i'm not trying to be rude but what do you want?
2:20pm name ommitted
damn ok, i was juss makin convo, but bye

now its things like this that grind my gears. last summer i was extremely single and playing the field when i met this guy who shall remain nameless. now he wasn't some big summer love to be totally honest i wasn't attracted to him in the least bit, we were only friends. he tried everything to convince me to date him. but as luck would have it, just as he started dancing on my last nerve i was informed that he had a girlfriend. now that may shatter some girls, but i was extremely relieved to find out that i wouldn't have to act like i liked him anymore. but the fates were not done with me yet. his girlfriend decided to start trying drag me through the mud. i had to kinda explain to her that her boyfriend pursued me...i guess love must be right blind because he told her that it was i on the chase. so after i cursed him and her out, i stopped talking to him.

every now and then i will get a random chat from him and most of the times i play nice and entertain his conversation for a few minutes. but as you can see from the chat, i was not in the mood today. now i don't think that i was extremely rude (i can get really mean if i want to), but am i the only woman that doesn't cozy up to liars. ugh.

stop trying to get back in homie...i'm not at all into you! N$%*A PLEASE!!!!

chat provided by facebook

Hi Fashion Snow Toys (Gift List '09)

ever heard of Cadillac, Michigan? if you not a winter games person then probably not, and that's only if you're a midwester(no its not a word but you get what i mean!). well i haven't been skiing in a long while, i spent one winter vacation there with my mom and sister. i had a lot of fun until i twisted my ankle, even then i just enjoyed hot chocolate from the lodge. now i haven't been snowboarding in a while, i would love to go sometime in the near future(this winter would be nice). in my random searching of the world wide web, i stumbled upon the most fashion foward snow board floating around. Chanel just put out the newest boards. i need one of these (preferably the all black board).

maybe there will be nicer girls?

i saw this on my friends facebook page, as his profile picture and i thought it was funny and cool!

Hi Fashion Barbie (Gift List '09)

Rei Kawabuko for Comme des Garcons is dressing for the holidays in her latest "Jingle Flower"print. i know i'm a "big" girl, but i can not tell a lie, this would be a wonderful present.

Robin Thicke "Sex Therapy"

there's not much to say about a song that makes you melt as soon as it comes on...mr thicke has put a majority of panties in bunches after this...ooww!!

dirty money posters

i'm weird, there its out in the open. i got a thing for party posters. i'm sick of pluggers that only become my book marks and i'm sick of internet party invites. sunday morning my homie Merk Murphy gave me a nice little something to add to my collection of posters.its for chicago's listening party for "Dirty Money" hosted by the one and only, Diddy. now 9 times out of 10, i'm not going, but the poster is a piece of history so i'm keeping it. kinda like how our parents used to do with posters from the 70's and 80's. who knows i might be showing this to my kids one day(now that was a good joke), but seriously you never know who this might impress down the line.

shout out to Merk Murphy for the poster....you should follow him on twitter...he's a real cool dude: @MerkMurphy

put on your long johns and bring out the boots

***my morning view***

it's december in chicago. what that means is snow, snow, snow. now if you're a native like me it doesn't really bother you, you know its time to pull out your long johns and lace up your boots.

***even in the bed i match(somehow those came off in my sleep,think i was molested by a ghost)***

so after two cups of coffee, some toast, and a bowl full of applesauce, i finally got dressed and dragged my self to start my school day...had a final...took the final...went back home..and i did it looking rather dapper if i do say so myself.


now i'm back home and hopefully sleep is in my future......later!!!

scarf and coat: the gap
thermal : hanes
jeans: levi
boots:breckelle's
bag: idk?

nothing says romance like chicken tenders....

i am a huge kevin hart fan, seriously so i was super geeked(rach for "excited") to see his eBay commercials. true to form they were extremely easy to relate with and hilarious. this is my favorite though...because, well nothing says romance like chicken tenders.

i may have baggage...but its all designer

i'm a label whore...but only for certain pieces. growing up in my family, nothing fake, phony, or knock-off was allowed. i learned early in life from my grandmothers, aunts, and my mother "real women do not carry fake bags". that has always stuck in my mind.
i went to school with kids that carried fake coach wallets, wore fake louis vuitton belts, and fake gucci bucket hats. not only did i know want to be a part of this trend, i was not allowed to be a part of it. my mother would take my sister and i to the coach store and only allow us to buy the small coin wallets, belts, and gloves. she often reminded us that the accessories in our closets should be able to be used in everyday life. the girls used to stroll in with their huge knock offs and snicker when i pulled out my small real items.

yesterday i pulled out my tiny Coach shoulder bag...its like circa 1995ish. my mom gave it to me when i first could be responsible for "real" bags. i was about 7 or 8, for a kid that age, that's a huge thing. anyway i didn't feel like carrying around a huge purse(it was just one of those days). it was perfect for my wallet, keys, phone, and lipgloss...

shout out to mom dukes for passing her bags on to me...thanks!

what mimi wore...

most younger sister love raiding their older sister's closets. not mine, she wants nothing more than to stay in an oversized tee and sweat pants. LOL, sometimes she will throw on a pair of jeans. being the loving big sister i got tired of her looking unloved. after much harassment from me she finally allowed me to dress her up(the last time i got to do this was her prom...and i loved every minute of it). with some rambling in my closet, jewelry box, and our mother's shoe rack, the final product was great(but she flatly refused any make up.."this is my face get used to it).


leather/tweed jacket - winlet
sweater dress - rampage
scarf - hand made
necklace - hand made
bracelet - tiffany & co.
earrings- i.n.c.
boots - steve madden

thanks mimi for being a great sport....big sis may not say it but i love you much!

World AIDS Day

get tested..know your status..enjoy your life

Bob By Karl Lagerfeld

music monday

i got a crazy lovejones for music, wish i could tell you when it started but i can't. since its Music Monday on Twitter, i decided to put up my playlist for the day.

1.after the love is gone - Earth, Wind, and Fire
2.you are my starship - Norman Connors
3.what's going on - Marvin Gay
4.love won't let me wait - Luther Vandross
5.let's stay together - Al Green
6.didn't i(blow your mind) - The Delfonics
7.that's the way of the world - Earth, Wind, and Fire
8.loving you - Minnie Riperton
9.gloria - Enchantment
10.betcha by golly wow - The Stylistics

i love love songs from the 70's, my mom swear i was born to late, i disagree with that but i do love the music from her highschool era...and she loves the music from mine...she is a die hard Jay Z fan...weird

***after the love is gone - earth,wind,and fire***


***let's stay together - al green***


***betcha by golly wow - the stylistics***

round midnight

i talk a lot about growing up and the music i was exposed to as a child. from hip hop, jazz, soul, funk, gospel, and even some country, my parents never half stepped with the musical selection. i woke up after not really having a peaceful sleep(which is strange because i had a wonderful day yesterday). anyway last night i left my radio on a popular jazz station and woke to,"Round Midnight" by Thelonious Monk. it reminded me of saturday morning in my family's southside home, eating dat donuts with my dad and playing with his model train sets....



***enjoy***

scissors congress

when the wheel of love is once set in motion. there is then no Shastra and no order. -the karma sutra

once ablaze, love's fire burns without regard to any treatise or science(shastra in Sanskirt). the karma sutra only begins to identify all the possible ways to twist and writhe together in a happy tangle, and no author could hope to list them all. ---julianne balmain.

• scissors, in which the jaghanas (area between the navel and the thighs) at the crux with legs straight and heads at opposite ends, like two slits pieces of paper joined perpendicularly to each other

i have personally never tried this but it looks like so much fun, maybe one day i can find a guy that would be willing test it out.

dear andy....

Tipsy Tuesday: the long island

the week just started and its already running my patience rather thin. so i decided i'd make myself a long island iced tea! it was so good, so i decided to share the recipe with you....

Ingredients
1 part Vodka
1 part Tequila
1 part Triple Sec
1 part Gin
1 part Rum
1 1/2 parts Sweet and Sour Mix
1 splash Coca Cola

Directions
Mix ingredients together over ice in a glass. Pour into a shaker and give one brisk shake. Pour back into the glass and make sure there is a touch of fizz at the top. Garnish with lemon.


so yummy and it was great! enjoy!

some stuff i listen to....gone fishing

this summer i really listened to "the cool kids" mixtape "gone fishing". i really am a fan of the music but these are a few of my faves from it.weekend girls, jumprope, and popcorn.


***weekend girl, feat. ryan leslie****


***jumprope featuring tennille***


***popcorn...if you're for chicago and you enjoy juke music you might have flipped when you heard the "hold up, wait a minute***

he can fake it too!

i have never professed to be any sort of sex guru, so you can imagine my surprise when i was informed that men are able to fake sexual pleasure. i mean i always taught that if the guy had a warm wet hole to stick their pee wee in they would be just fine. but apparently that is not the case!

as of late the hot topic of my life has been sex. my friends and i are a very open group, lately some of my male friends have been complaining about the bad sex that they have been having. naturally when they told me about it, i smacked my lips and questioned "how was it possible for a man to not enjoy sex?". quite frankly my eyes have opened to new possibilities. they have been nice enough to enlighten me on the art of "man faking".

all of my friends were able to pull off the faking by acting as if they climaxed in a condom and after they were through they got rid of the empty condom, usually by flushing them, or in one of my friends cases via the kitchen garbage disposal.

after all the conversations with them, i got to thinking "have i ever been faked out?". not that it really matters to me, but i have realized we ladies aren't the only ones that can be slick in the bedroom

what's in your duffel bag?

my pseudo godfather darrick carruth is the shit(sorry for cursing LOL) in the t shirt game. like really but this post isn't about that right now, even though he could send his favorite niece some shirts...hey i'll take a look book too. anyway i was websurfing and found some cool pics of him and had to post them.

i think i spotted the de la soul dunks in there...too bad my foot is just way to small to even try and fit that...TREATED!

you should defiantly check out his line "SneakerFiendTees". unc you could call or text me and mom dukes from time to time we still love you, LOL!

Video Phone - Beyonce feat Lady Gaga

so when i heard the song i was automatically rolling and popping my hips to the beat....bey and gaga have totally wowed me with this video

Orange Moon Evolution - Melissa Renee Jones

I am that Orange Moon.
Come taste like that Citrus Fruit.
Mr. Man on the moon.
Im refelecting the sun and its light is u.
I am that Orange Moon.
Elusive in this night.
You mark down on your calendar
quarter and half moonlights.
All whose state is
irrelevant
concerning you.
I am that Orange Moon.
Refelection of the Sun.
Fresh Fly and Classy as they come.
People look at Orange Moon in Awe.
Cuz its rare
in the
winter.
They say Its looks big, so full, so exotic and free.
But it never excites you
because it actually YOU that you see.
I am that orange moon.
In refelection of the sun.
Night vision to decipher
the real frrom
the fake ones.
Political Passions for my tommorrows kids.
Faded jeans and tshirt
to match the mood I'm in.
Sound familiar,
Dont it??
I am THAT ORANGE MOON.
Melody soul in the form
of my thoughts.
Creative outlets, mind mission
to rebel what the governement taught.
Gods Soldier.
Self destiny molder.
Getting in Yet brother??
I am The ORANGE MOON.
Im refelecting off of you.
I'll wait til these stars
dim down
so you can have a better veiw.
A half moon is 50%
of
what it takes
to
keep you out of the dark,
So,
Sun thinks 50/50 is all
he needs from a partner.
A full moon shines
off only 80% of the Sun.
Which means its only 80% true to you, SUN!
and full moon is full of self
and needs
the wolves to howl at it for
CONFIDENCE.
Orange moon
comes around enough
to let Sun know its still there.
100% Self
100% You
100% self giver.
100% Rare.
Come enehance me, Sun!
Put the mirror down and look at your refelection.
Til the Sun is making way around the world.
Orange Moon is
putting life on mars
waiting for Sun to
R-EVOLVE
into her world.

This poem was inspired by Erykah Badu's song orange Moon.
written by the homie melissa renee jones aka honeybee! follow her via twitter.... blaqhoneybee

it HURTS!!!!!

love hurts. in a perfect world those two words would never be allowed to form a sentence. too bad my world is far from perfect. what happens when you get tired of trying just for your trying to go unnoticed.

like all fairy tales it started perfect, dream like even. but what most people don't realize is that nightmares are dreams too.

for a long time, i guarded my heart. shielding it from a cruel world. i thought if i pretended i didn't have one, i could never know hurt. a while i got along just fine putting up this front but deep inside i wanted more. i had gone so long without having to use feelings that i didn't know how to use.

then the unthinkable happened, i fell and i fell hard! i didn't care though, i finally was going to have something to catch and call my own. but it seemed as fast as my joy appeared it quickly dissolved, leaving me hurt, angry, and confused.

have you ever had the dream where you're falling and as much as you try, you can never pull yourself up and land on your feet, but you just never can? well that's me falling and the one thing that i thought would catch me is GONE. i'm falling so fast that i can see the jagged rocks waiting for me on the ground.

i have no idea exactly when it happened, but a hair line fracture has turned into an all out crack. i've tried for sometime to mend this but the crack only seems to grow deeper and deeper.

i've always ran from hurt, but this time i've tried to dig in my heels and face it. but the more i try, it feels like its no point. i'm ready to pack away my stilettos and lace up my high tops and run for the hills.

sometimes i wished it never happened but i'm glad it did. this little workout has proven that my heart works but maybe its time to put it away until the big show...